Sunday, February 11, 2018

What Can I Change in Eight Weeks?

If you fail to plan. You plan to fail. Or so I've been told.
This book is not a planner. It's a journal


I have been really excited about this idea. Just couldn't wait to share it with you. My blog journal of what eight weeks of commitment could look like. The plan was to post all eight weeks together. Blogger started acting all funny about Week Three. So it has to be published in a four part series. Ah Well Blogger is free. Guess I can't complain, much?

Starting today! Exercise six days a week. Plus tracking all calories every day. Using the Spark People website (No Excuses) 
Along with blogging my feelings and experiences.


Week One


 

*December 18 & 19*
Monday and Tuesday
Starting Out Weight 142.6
 
Here I go again! This feels a lot like last year. Hoping this year will be different. I didn't track my food on these two days. Already messed up. Must recover and move on. Fall seven times and get up eight!

 *Dec 20*
Wednesday
Only day three and just before getting up. I was trying to find any excuse to talk myself out of exercising.  Did it anyway. Also started tracking my food on Spark People today. 

*Dec 21*
Thursday
I love to eat. Eating for comfort is my biggest obstacle. I can eat even when stuffed.

*Dec 22*
Friday
 Out of the house most of the day.
I am so tired and don't want to exercise.
(I did exercise, made myself do it. Patting myself on the back)

*Dec 23*
Saturday
Christmas is my favorite time of year. Love cooking and being domestic. Gifts are my love language. Giving them and I don't mind receiving them!


Goody Bags For My Children's Church Kids



 

*Dec 24*
Christmas Eve
Sunday
Will track my weight every Sunday
Sunday weight 142.2

God always knows what we need and when. That is all I have to say about that.


Week Two

 

*Dec 25*
Christmas Day!
Monday
Opened presents. Put the turkey in the oven. Went and did my Monday exercises. (No Excuses) I knew that later in the day I would be too exhausted.


On Holidays, my previous exercise. Would be coming up and justifying why I wouldn't exercise. Then binging on all the yummy food around. Then saying, Oh well! There is always tomorrow.
 
*Dec 26*
Tuesday
One year anniversary of my mother's stroke. So thankful that she is still with us. Didn't have any bad side effects.
I love my mom so much.


*Dec 27*
Wednesday
Comfort eating is the worst obstacle to weight loss. Mad, sad, happy or upset. Even when I am not even hungry.
There is a really funny story about this purse, in this blog
New Year's Resolutions

 

*Dec 28 & 29*
Thursday and Friday
Over this Arctic cold snap. Simply over it.

Friday Workout Music
A very old CD
That is Compact Disc for all you youngins

*Dec 30*
Saturday
We had a very light snow fall overnight. It was fluffy and easy to sweep. I don't like snow. This type of snow is tolerable. Got out early shoveled and put ice melt down.



Saturday Workout music.
Found a box of old CD's
Needed some upbeat music


*Dec 31*
New Year's Eve
Sunday

Last week 142.2
This Week 141.8

One of my New Year's Resolutions is to be more positive. I am having trouble. It is so hateful cold and frigid. It is hard to stop complaining.

Sunday is usually the day that I binge eat. With the temperatures. I would give myself permission to overeat. Oh! I will start again tomorrow. That is what I would tell myself. Then I would be sad. The scale doesn't lie. It would give me away. Then I would eat more. The harmful cycle would continue. Must break that destructive cycle.


Two weeks done six to go!
December 18-31



The Start of something very good!

If you like this blog. You might really like this one New Year's Resolution Update





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I am neither a Doctor or Dietitian.
All healthcare choices should be discussed with your Doctor before you begin.
Also leaving comments about Garcinia Cambogia, et al. Will absolutely get your comment deleted and you will be blocked!

~That's my .02 cents. Not that it is even worth that much!~



Monday, January 29, 2018

New Year's Resolutions! Update!


Flowers go through a lot of trials just to bloom.
They don't give up!
1. Make God a priority and less of an afterthought. (Should.        have been first, in the first place)

This wasn't the first resolution. The first time I wrote this it was originally number seven. It really should have been number one.
This is one that I have kept. This is so important to me. Really it is. Even though it was originally one of the last resolutions. Just trying to do better.

2. Continue what I have been doing with diet and exercise.
    Come back in six weeks to read my blog about in mid
    February!

A blog about this will be coming soon! (about two weeks!) So stay tuned.
I am really excited about this and I can't wait to share it with you! Squee!

3. Work on organizing my stuff. Take one room item and
     organize it. That is also something that I have been
     working on in the last part of 2017.


Hangs head in shame.

I still found my purse though. That should be celebrated.
 
4. More joy and less negativity. You have no idea how hard this is. (I am a grumbler)

I could do a lot better. I am a grumbler and complainer.
It has been really hateful cold and that does affect my mood.
At least I haven't sat around the house whining about how I don't want to go out. Since it is so cold outside. I have been tuning out the news though. Their only goal is to create drama.
 
5. Less negativity about celebrities and fauxlebrities alike. They
    are after all humans with feelings.

Hahaha! I could do a lot better!

6. Less negativity about the people in my past. I am going to try
    and live by the phrase. If you don't have anything nice to say.
    come sit by me. Don't say anything at all. By you, I mean me.
 
Working on this. Could do better

Forgiveness is for my own well being. Not for the other person. Just because I forgive. Doesn't mean I've given the person a pass. It is just for me. I'm not going to hang onto the past. I have done this too much. It affects my health.

7. Read more and I don't mean Facebook. I mean real books.

I've been reading more. 

8. I'm also going to get my nose pierced. Well with all self
    reflection. I need to do something fun.
    (hmmmm Second thoughts on the nose piercing. If that is the
     only resolution I break. I am doing good)


Umm yeah, about that. I have almost determined that. I am not going to get it done. My nose is entirely too sensitive. So I will have to be envious about peoples adorable nose studs. I am going to have to pick something else fun to do. No I am not going to get a tattoo. Tattoos aren't for me.

I wrote all of that. To show that it is okay to mess up on your resolutions. You're human and you're going to make mistakes. It is okay to keep working on your resolutions. Even when you've messed up.
Just keep being better. You have only failed. If you give up.
Fall seven times. Pick yourself up eight! Just don't give up, ever!

Even if you decide to do better in June. Or even now. It is good to do something. I am going to try again to become more organized. It isn't too late!

Never, never, NEVER give up! ~Winston Churchill

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Saturday, December 30, 2017

New Year's Resolutions

Funny story about this purse. Read below to find out


          It's that time of year again! The time that I make my New Year's Resolutions. Except for the bitter cold that usually accompanies January. I love that a brand new year. It equals a blank slate to start all over.

Here are my New Year's Resolutions!

1. Make God a priority and less of an afterthought. (Should have
    been first in the first place)

2. Continue what I have been doing with diet and exercise.
    Come back in six weeks to read my blog about in mid
       February!

3. Work on organizing my stuff. Take one room item and
     organize it. That is also something that I have been
     working on in the last part of 2017.

The funny story that goes with that purse pictured above.
I bought that two years ago, from Zulily. Or some such website.
I bought two. A larger black one for the fall. Had every intention to carry the above pictured one in the spring.
Spring rolls around and I cannot find it anywhere. Searching high and low. So, two years later. (Yes I am sloppy and disorganized)
I really buckle down and work on getting organized.
That purse has been in the back of my mind ever since it was lost.
On the very day. I start organizing. I'm thinking about it. Thinking about places it could possibly be.
I walk in my closet to start. Then pause and look down. What is slightly poking out of a reusable grocery bag?
That Danny Bear bag! It has been there the entire time. Just shook my head. I cannot believe it myself.
          I am not a slob. Not by any means. There are no unused food dishes in my bedroom. Those get taken down to the kitchen right away. I am just messy and disorganized.

4. More joy and less negativity. You have no idea how hard this is

5. Less negativity about the people around me. Including celebrities
    and fauxlebrities. You have no idea how hard this is.

6. Less negativity about the people in my past. I am going to try
    and live by the phrase. If you don't have anything nice to say.
    come sit by me. Don't say anything at all. By you, I mean me.

7. Read more and I don't mean Facebook. I mean real books


8. I'm also going to get my nose pierced. Well with all self

    reflection. I need to do something fun.
    (hmmmm Second thoughts on the nose piercing. If that is the
      only resolution I break. I am doing good)

Check back in eight weeks and see if any of the resolutions have been kept! I guess that would be around the first of March
(Change that to mid March)
 
Happy New Year!
WOW! 2018!

~This is just my .02 cents. Not sure that it is even worth that much.~


Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Yippee!!!!!!!

 
 
         Weight loss from October 3rd to November 7th has been four pounds.
 
     How? Tracking my calories using Spark People. Exercising four to five times per week. With an ancient bicycle and strength and tone bands from Walmart for $15. I cleaned up my diet. I eat more whole foods. Leaning more towards a plant based diet. Can't say I will never eat meat again. Never is a long time.
 
     I also weigh myself three times a week. Realizing that this doesn't work for some. The scale isn't my enemy. It is only a tool that tells me my weight. After hearing many times to ditch the scale. Go by how my clothes fit. I have many sizes of clothes. And have already gained five pounds by the time my jeans don't fit. So that doesn't work for me.
      
        
 
 
Left 10/3 144.4
Right 11/7 140.2

 
      I am also very glad to announce. It has been 36 days since my last binge. Even with some very stressful situations that have left me in tears. No chemical substance can cure my problems. Only God can do that!  I weigh myself three times a week. The scale isn't my enemy. It is only a tool that determines my weight. Won't throw it out. Won't use my clothes. By the time my jeans won't zip. I have already gained five pounds.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I can see a little bit of progress!

 
 
     This is a big weekend coming up. Don't want to undo all my progress. In one weekend. Working on finding balance. Between big events and staying on a healthy track. Had a previous event. Where I did pretty good. I could have done better. Won't feel guilty because of it. As a wonderful Spark Member said, Guilt burns no calories.
 
 
 
 
 
 
I never noticed I have chicken wings
One day I will not have them!
And I'll get rid of the back fat, too!
       
    Coming soon. Thanksgiving, Christmas and all the indulgences that comes with them.  Buckling down and staying serious. I can still lose weight. Done it before, can do it again! Must remember that these are holiDAYS and not holiMONTHS. Another wonderful saying from a Spark member. With a couple parties thrown in. Going to find the balance.  

    Next week I begin my new exercise program. Changing it up every six weeks. Keeps me from getting bored.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

My Progress..........

 
      My progress has been......well very little progress. It is hard to admit.   There has been one non scale victory! An inch off of my waist. That is good right? Even though I have been struggling with the same four pounds since July.
 
 
 
 
Started out at 10/3 at 144.4


 
 
The biggest problem is using food for comfort. Yes I know, it should be God and Jesus. Prayer and [not] corn chips should be my solace. Comforting with food has been my refuge as long as I can remember. 
 
There have been so many stressful events this summer. Just one thing right after another. Get over one event and then something else happens. My companion has been a constant feeling of dread.  The calm before the storm has only lasted so long. In the past. Not being able to know when or how the other shoe is going to drop. Or if it is even going to drop. Is causing mounds of anxiety. My sweet little elderly terrier. Is empathetic and feeds off of my anxiety.
 
 
 
 


Mandie my sweet elderly terrier
Who seems to be an empath
and feeds off of my anxiety


 
I know that worry is a thief and it only takes. Stealing my life away. Plus comfort eating doesn't work. Eat a whole bag of corn chips. It might feel good while it's happening. When the corn chips are done the problem is still there. You feel so much worse. On top of it. Yet I still succumb to the dreaded comfort eating. Although, I am becoming better, slowly. Putting this knowledge into practice. That is the challenge.
 
 
 
 
Not styling my hair. Just so that I can sweat it back down
with exercise
 
 

 
 
So anyway keep on keeping on. I know what works now and what doesn't. I have been working on cleaning up my diet. I know that low carb and sugar free don't work. Strict diets don't work. Can't stick with them. Artificial sweeteners just make me hungry hangry and you wouldn't like me when I am hangry. Those artificial natural zero calorie sweeteners. Give me cramps and diarrhea. Especially when they contain sugar alcohol. Sorry to be so blunt, but keeping it real. These work for some. Strict diets. Diets where certain foods are off limits. If anything is forbidden. Like eating pancakes for dinner. That will eventually trigger a binge. As sure as the sun sets.
If any of this works for you, Great!
 
 
 

Can I make a joke about Back Boobs right now?


 
 

 
Still not giving up. Still going to hang in there. Even though it means clutching at the door casings. As I am dragged out. Even though results have been nothing like I hoped. Sadly, I weigh more than when I started back in January.
 
It is sad when you have to put marbles back in the jar





Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Progress!

     I got to put another marble in the Progress Jar. Now at 140 lbs. Just one pound above where I started in January! Next blog will be at 135 lbs. I will post a progress picture. I know you're all waiting with baited breath. For that one!




Thursday, July 27, 2017

I Haven't Given Up!

     There hasn't been a blog in a while, but haven't given up! Before going on Vacation in June. I had finally gotten down to 140 lbs. Then went on a lovely trip to visit family. After arrivng home and weighing! I was so excited because I had only gained .09 of a pound! Then there was a major setback and gained five pounds. At 145 lbs that was my highest weight in ten years. My biggest adversary is binge eating. Then I had to make a choice. Would all the weight that had been lost over ten years ago. Be gained back? (ten years ago, I weighed 160lbs) Or would this whole scale creeping up thing. Be gotten under control. And work to lose the weight again? My choice was to lose the weight again.

     As previously stated my biggest nemesis is binge eating. It happens when depressed or stressed. The last couple binges. The ones that caused my sharp weight increase. Were just because. No really good reason. Just because I could. Didn't make one lick of sense. I knew what the outcome would be while shoving my face full of food. Binges don't always make sense. One knows what the outcome will be, but does it anyway.

     From now on, I'm only going to blog. At every five pounds
Another blog at 140
Progress Picture at 135





It's a very sad day
when you have to remove the marbles from your
progress jar 





Even though this picture was taken in May!
This is what yours truly looks like currently!
At 145 lbs 😭