Showing posts with label struggle. Show all posts
Showing posts with label struggle. Show all posts

Saturday, March 30, 2019

The Process



All of Life is a Process

     
     I have come to the realization, life is a process.  Sometimes the process is the consequence of our bad choices. That is not really what we are talking about today. That is for another blog. I have made mistakes. I am not perfect. I have had to suffer the consequences of my actions. That is for another blog. Even though it is wonderful and freeing. When we own our poor life choices. Instead of blaming others and blaming peer pressure. That is for another blog. I could write explicitly about that. Let me stop right here.

Air Plant, just because


    What about when life hands you lemons? When you are going through times and trials that are not of your own making. When real life is happening. My thoughts are that life usually mirrors seasons. People are free to disagree. For me the season of trial is winter. No this isn't going to be a winter hate blog. No matter how disagreeable and nasty the season is.


Daffodils poking through the cold hard ground
In February


    Keep in mind that everything that is costly and beautiful, goes through a process and sometimes it is painful. Diamonds require high temperatures and pressure.(1) Gold needs a fire (2) to be refined and remove the imperfections. Gold and diamonds have no feeling. If gold and diamonds had feeling, the pressure would be painful.
This is just the creation. It doesn't take into account the cutting and molding from human hands.  

   When a pearl is created. A parasite or some type of irritant, takes up residence in a Oyster shell. (3) It can take six months on wards up to four years. Interesting thought that the pearl that took four years to form would be the most expensive(4) Even the odd pearls that are flawed are still beautiful.

    A caterpillar has to die, to become a butterfly. (5) It spins itself into a cocoon. Then it digests itself, but some cells remain. Having once watched the metamorphosis. From caterpillar to butterfly. It looks awful and painful. 

     This is the verse that has brought me comfort, during the winters of my life. Even if it has taken me a while to come to this point. The reason I am writing this blog. Is because of my current trip through winter, both spiritually and meteorological. (link below)

Progress Report, Part Two


2 Corinthians 12:9


I use the NIV and it isn't up for discussion.

     

Another verse that has brought me comfort. 

1 Peter 5:7 NIV

      Daffodils among other Spring flowers need a hard and cold winter. This is from my own personal experience. Once when we had a very warm winter. We had no daffodils or tulips. I personally loved it, the bulbs? Not so much.

    In February when the Daffodils start sprouting. They often have to endure terrible circumstances. Snow, ice and freezing cold temperatures. Yet they survive. They persevere and bloom in due time. They are all the more beautiful for their suffering.


Before
After



A few of my other blogs
What I have been doing? Progress Report, Part One
What have I been doing? Progress Report, Part Two

Bibliography
1.  https://geology.com/articles/diamonds-from-coal/
2.  https://www.britannica.com/technology/gold-processing
3. https://www.livescience.com/32289-how-do-oysters-make-pearls.html
4. https://www.americanpearl.com/historyoyster.html
5. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/caterpillar-butterfly-metamorphosis-explainer/

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

What Happened?


I cannot begin to tell you how happy this makes me
 
Back when I had success


To be honest. These four weeks (February 12- March 11) Have been an immense struggle.

Between the blog deleting itself, twice. Pictures moving around on their own. Pictures deleting all by themselves. Really cold and frigid weather. It's got me down. Weigh down, (pun intended)
 
The thought had crossed my mind more than once. Just delete the entire months blog and start all over. Like it never happened. A brand new blog on March 12th.

I'm going to keep part of this blog. Since it was promised that I would share the good, bad and ugly. Deleting blogs, because they aren't going my way is deceitful.

Here's how weeks three and four went. (February 26- March 11)
Note: I did delete Weeks One & Two. I felt that I discussed them enough in the first few paragraphs. Weeks Three and Four made those previous weeks seem redundant.

On Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday (2/26-2/28) I felt very blah. Just like I was spinning my wheels. Still exercised as planned and recorded my food. Just felt like it was getting me absolutely no where. Like I would always bounce between 139 and 140.

On Thursday (3/1) Just wasn't feeling exercise. So I told myself I had a cold and didn't. Didn't really have a cold and totally could have exercised. Friday (3/2) I went out and celebrated my birthday. Did all my exercises. Didn't record my food. Got my period today. Explains the blah feeling. Really frigid and windy.

Saturday (3/3) My real birthday! That is where all was lost and the spiraling into the abyss occurred. My period was doing a number on me. Although it explains my blah feelings and the bloat. Sunday (3/4) I just felt so bloated and blah. Didn't even weigh. Knew that it wouldn't be good.



My birthday cake. No way am I going to turn down cake!

My Birthday blog from last year. In the same boat. Really must get control of this.
Birthday Blog! 2017
Monday and Tuesday (3/5&6) Continued in the spiral. At least I exercised on Monday. If only for thirty minutes. (something is better than nothing) No exercise on Tuesday. Didn't track my food at all.

Wednesday (3/7) Started exercising again. Although deciding this week that I would take it easy. Wednesday through Saturday. I would do only thirty minutes on the stationary bicycle. Then revisit my exercise plan on Monday. Make some changes. That I believe that I can maintain.

 


This is always the first daffodil to bloom.
It gives me hope!
Thursday and Friday (3/8&9) Recommitted to the healthy lifestyle. By exercising and recording my food again. Also started a new project.


Have I bitten off more than I can chew?
What on earth could these possibly become?
You will have to read the blog in two weeks to find out.





 Saturday and Sunday (3/10 & 11) Feeling much better. Even today, (3/10) this blog has been giving me fits. Trying to delete itself. Moving around pictures. Sometimes I think that it just doesn't want to be published. Maybe it is a sign?
 
Sundays are usually very hard. For some reason eating too much on Sunday is par for the course. (This Sunday, no different) I was a little nervous about weighing. I knew that I had gained.

Weight 3/11 140.9
Not surprised
 

I am glad that I didn't delete this blog. It just goes to show. That no matter how hard you fall. Or how much you stray off course. You can get back on course. It isn't easy. It is never easy, but it's well worth it! As Dorie said in Finding Nemo, Just Keep Swimming!

 
Something that I love to do
Especially when I am feeling blah
 
 
 

 
     To make a long blog even longer. The struggle continued for almost another month. Gained the weight back.  Lost it and gained it lost it and gained it. Didn't gain the inches back! Could still wear the smaller Easter dress. On April 3rd sitting here writing the addition this blog. It is cloudy, damp and very cold.
 
     I really don't like this weather. Despise isn't a strong enough word. It makes me feel like my head and shoulders are stuck in a vise. The  throbbing pain is so awful. It can even make me cry. Then just feeling of being out of sorts. Makes me want to eat everything in sight. Ate just about everything in sight yesterday.
 
     In January and February you expect this sort of weather. March and April it is just so hard to take. The feeling down and the pain. There is only so much ibuprofen one can take.
 
   My feeling is that I let you all down. I wasn't successful. So I am going to take a break from blogging for a month or two. To figure things out.
 
I should change the title of this blog to. How to undo all the progress you made in eight weeks.
 
 
 
I really didn't want to publish this blog. I was going to delete it and come back in eight weeks. The struggle is part of the journey though. As is being transparent.
 
 
Thank you for reading! 
 
 



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